HIM N MY FIRST LOVE

When HE out of town I really don't want to let HIM go but what can I do? Second day out of town HE really make me sad n down when HE told me HE stay at HIS Frens which is not appropriate for me. When I'm sad n down about I couldn't believe with my self that my first love search for me. He left a message which I really don't want to reply but when I think back n my heart really in pain when I think how HE enjoy himself out of town with HIS Frens. That the time I start reply my first love message. I couldnt believe it when my first love say between us still there but I already told he just my past anyway he already married but why until now he still search for me? When I reply my first love text it's really makes me cry because what ever he say to me that's really I waiting for long time ago. I really can't help myself now cause I really down n sad everything mix up. LOVE!!